The next day when I was trying to take over from Gigi I heard that she told a waitress that she lost the magazine. She did not dare to ask me. I don't know whether she knew or not that I took it. I pretend didn't hear anything. Clearly the magazine does not belong to her. It belongs to another waitress. And that waitress was Michelle. It suddenly became clear to me as sunlight back then that young women also read porn magazines just like guys do. It was only me so kuai kuai decent good mommy's boy never buy porn magazines. There was hardly any picture of a naked guy in that magazine. I wonder whether these girls were aroused by the pictures of naked women.

While working during evening shift on another day, a young waiter (20 year old also) told me his experience the other night of visiting Geylang & lost his virginity for the first time to a hooker. He told me that he felt guilty. I never visited a hooker before so I did not believe his story. I was so naive back then. I could not relate to my poor friend back then.

I felt guilty for stealing a porn magazine & at the same time also cannot wait to go home to look at the clitoris vagina in that magazine. I could not concentrate on my work. All I think of is to go home & have sex with my pillow imagining that it was Michelle. The restaurant was closing & that evening was a busy night. I was busy counting the money & all the waitress & cooks left except me & Jenny whose job is to close the restaurant only after I leave. She came to help me count my bills to make it tally with the computer & my money in the drawer. After finishing & switching off the lights, she asked me whether I wanted to have sex with her. I thought she was joking again this time. I jokingly said "Yes" because I was horny for the past few days since discovering this porn magazine. Then she closed the door from inside & hugged me. I was shocked and at the same time felt so shiok being hugged by a pretty woman for the first time.

She gets undress & I was so shock & shiok to see the breasts of a woman live for the first time. My penis was so hard like a rock & went up 180 degree. I took off my jacket & shirt & she pulled my pant & then she pulled out her black panty. That was the first time I saw hairy vagina. Then she asked me to lie down on the dining table. I did as what she told me. She was on top of me licking my nipple. When she tried to insert my hard like a rock penis into her vagina I came back to my senses. I stopped her. I told her that I could not do it as my heart belongs to Michelle. I quickly get dress while she was trying to persuade & beg me to continue & finish it off. I left in a hurry.

Now, while typing this story of my life when I was young & naive where I worked in a hotel for about 12 months in order to be with the girl of my dream Michelle, I don't know whether to regret or not for not taking the opportunity of having sex with Jenny. If I did my life right now would have been a different story. I would not have lost my virginity to a hooker by the name Gigi at Tropical Spa at Scott Road five years later. I would not have come here to KL to heal my broken heart searching for a HC girl by the name Don (who looks like Michelle) who worked in Prince Spa (around Raffles Place).

Now, regarding that sweet lovely fair white smooth skin Michelle & what happens to her now. I don't know. All I know is I love her very much & I miss her dearly. I enjoyed working night shift & I always volunteered to work night shift in order to see my sweet Michelle Reis. I really enjoyed talking to her when there was no customer around late at night. I enjoyed how she stood in front of the computer & I was sitting on my chair behind her lovely curvy buttock teaching her about my work. I enjoyed looking at her white panty when she had to squat down to pick up something on the floor in front of me. I also enjoyed looking at her white lovely thigh when she had to stand on my table in order to take something in the cabinet.

There was once when she works midnight while having menstruation. She bled profusely that night & she forgot to bring her sanitary pad. She kept on visiting toilet. One waiter came & told me that her mini skirt was soaked with blood. I decided to bring Hotel's tissue papers from my cabinet to her in the Lady's toilet. There were no customers that night so it was alright for me to enter the toilet. I gave the tissue papers to her as she locked herself in the toilet. I asked her whether she was alright. Then she asked me to help her to clean her miniskirt and blood soaked white panty as she dares not to cum out. I helped her that night and she appreciated me so much. I think she didn't know that I secretly admire her.

I bought her expensive gifts even when it was not her birthday as I always find excuses to shower her with gifts. By buying her gifts like perfumes, chocolates, etc I was preparing myself to date her but I regret to say that I had no gut to ask her out for a date. Actually there were many waiters who were admiring her secretly too as these waiters used to come to tell me how they wish they could fuck her or rape her. I felt like punching some of these waiters. There was also one ex chef whose face look like a fat frog who always come to visit this hotel in order to see Michelle.

I left the hotel a broken hearted man when I discovered that there are 3 guys who are interested in her & she could be interested in one of these 3 guys. They are:
(1) One charismatic funny Indian waiter
(2) one student where Michelle was studying part time
(3) a very rich son of a tycoon who always visit the restaurant to meet Michelle

Now, I am wondering what Michelle is doing at this moment late at night. Is she having sex with this Indian waiter right now? I wonder how her kids would look like because Michelle is so fair like snow while this Indian guy is black like charcoal. Will their kids be grey in color? (Please don't get me wrong as I am not a racist). If this Indian guy had the gut to woo a fair Chinese girl Michelle then why not a Chinese man like me? Whenever I see an Indian guy holding hands with a Chinese girl I will always think of my Michelle.
Yesterday, I saw a very fat short ugly Indian guy (don't get me wrong - I am not saying that Indian guys are ugly because many Indians are actually more handsome than Chinese - e.g. Amitabh Bachan, Hrithik Roshan, etc. But this young guy is literally ugly) holding hands with a fair looking Chinese girl. My point is love could overcome racial & facial prejudices that we have in others.

Or is she having sex with this Chinese guy that she studied with?

Or is she having sex with this son of rich tycoon now?

Or is she feeling lonely & thinking of me right now?

I will never know. I shouldn't have left that hotel out of sudden. Ain't it better to loose in love than to never love at all?

I feel like crying now though I had no more tears to shed. Tomorrow night in order to console myself I am going to find a fair whiite skin long hair PRC girl in a HC in KL to fuck to heal my broken heart. I might post a fucking report here or at WSG forum.

So my question to you guys is "Did you ever masturbate at your working place?" Are you a pervert if you do that? I don't think I am a pervert. I never think of harming or molesting anyone. Now, looking back at the past I can only laugh at my stupidity. I will never do such a stupid thing again because it makes me feel like Pee Wee Herman & George Michael. I will also never fall in love again because love could break my heart. It is better for me to spend away my inherited money on beautiful girls in KL HCs & Singapore's HCs.

That time the songs Everything I Do (I Do It For You) & Because I Love You (The Postman Song) were so popular. Can you imagine how my heart felt while listening to these songs?