[robotoad]

Bro TS, must be difficult typing what you did and I hope it has provided some form of liberation. Don't bottle up your feelings and make sure you confide in friends who can empathize with you. I believe it usually helps in feeling better! In this tough and stressful environment, I think it's easy to overlook our mental health. Make sure to have your own interest in mind and do what's best for yourself.

I believe life is made out of minuscule decisions that lead to a desired outcome. I.E. to say, a subconscious decision to go to RP's place, to be sent in his car, to go see his dog, possibly even to argue with you to give an excuse. These small decisions might have served as the foundation and lead up to what happened between them. The replies here like ahpor80's and neoprint123's make good sense if you deliberate deeper. After the anger and hurt subsides, you might one day look back and realize that you were the lucky one to get out when you could, it's all perspective.

Not sure is there is a point in pursuing your relationship but that is your choice to make. Ask yourself if it's worth your time and the heartbreak - an influencer model girlfriend might seem to make a good trophy wife, but looks and attraction fade too. Make sure not to do anything too rash or silly and get some semblance of composure before you make decisions. Hope you'll be alright, cheers.