my affair with my sis in law

[diputs1269]

Thanks sl for the juicy update, back to normal relationship congrats.

[SmartBalls]

Nice update TS, hope you'll make her gian for more sex!

[NastyThaiboy]

I really like this story!

setting up my tent here for more updates.

[ml1138]

nice story and waiting for updates to pass the time during May Day..

[otamay]

What a shiok night for sl, looking forward for more.

[diputs1269]

Sl please continue.

[ChurchillDowns]

Kudos to TS and thank you for nice story. Hope to read more updates.

[ZhinsoAbeh]

3 rounds of applause for TS and hope to read more.

[seowlang]

Part 10
HTHT

We spent every single ounce of energy left in us that night, got so burned out that we didn’t wake up till it was past 12 in the afternoon.

We must have slept spooned to each other as I woke up to one arm still around J’s waist and the other pinned and numbed from under J’s neck for hours I believe. I tried to slowly retrieve my arm from under her neck, but J turned around immediately. Her puffy and watery eyes told me she must have woken up awhile ago. She leaned over to kiss me.

I: Good morning darling

J: Its good afternoon in case you didn’t know

I: Then brunch it will be! Let me see what I can fix for you

We made our way out of bed and freshened up a little before I stepped into the kitchen. J made coffee and sat at the sofa. I tried striking up a conversation about the wedding, but I could see she wasn’t really keen to talk. As I observed her from the kitchen, she was sipping coffee and occasionally staring out of the window. I knew we must have THE conversation but never expect it to come soooo soon. There was a tinge of Déjà vu. Why does it always happen this way for us?? As I ushered J over to the table to tuck in, she came and sat down without a word. I held her hand and rubbed my thumb on the back of her palm.

I: I love you.

J leaned over and planted a kiss on my lips without saying a word.

I: Are you alright? Have I upset you in anyway? Please tell me.

J: No, I’m ok

I: Do you think I only know you for a few months?

J kept very quiet and just ate her food without looking at me. I didn’t know how to carry on the conversation because I have a hunch what was troubling her.

Our past. And how to bridge that to our future.


We just finished our breakfast without a word. I felt it was quite a dampening state for us to be in right after such a beautiful day (the highlight for me was the night of course ��) before.

I: Come let’s get dress up. I want to bring you to this wonderful place that sells home-made ice cream

J: No I don’t want.

I: hmmm.. how about we get some sun at marina barrage or east coast park?

J: Nay

I: Or how about..

J: You never run out of ideas, do you? I don’t feel like going out

Ouch. That sounded like I was trying too hard but all I wanted was to cheer her up. I was slightly offended and kept silent in protest of the unfair treatment on how critical she was towards my effort.

After what felt like a couple of minutes, J broke the silence.

J: Look, I’m just feeling a little messed up inside

I: About us right?

J nodded.

I: We overcame great obstacles and hurdles to be where we are now…

J: SO WHERE ARE WE NOW?!

I was a little taken aback at her raised and agitated voice. At the same time, I felt she was being too hard on ourselves, especially me.

I: can we not talk about this now and enjoy the moment?

J: Dear, I can really, really see your effort to always think about making me happy. You really have 101 ways to cheer me up. I can see it and I know it. You are a person that lives for the moment. Of course, we can choose to live in a world of our own, free from others and what they think about us… for better or worse, in sickness and health, till death do us apart…. That is if we live in an ideal world. If we are able to let go of everyone that disapproves of our past and severe ties with those who do not want us to have a future. We will ignore those that view us with tinted glasses and avoid others that had a glimpse of our history. But is it just about us? Have you really thought carefully all these things? Am I really the one for you?

That caught me a little off guard. Not like I don’t love J but its the complication of our past that she was referring to. I kept quiet.

J: Seriously, the things that you have done for me, the effort and extent you put to please and woo me… honestly, its hard not to fall in love with you… really... (I could see her eyes reddening). But once a while I ask myself.. will you do the same thing for another woman you have feelings for? Cos frankly. I don’t think you have problems finding another woman after my sis and you divorced.

I: Come up, why are you…

J: NO, please, let me finish. I feel so because I do ask myself. Do I happened to walk into your life again by chance? Or are you just lonely and need a companion? At times I tell myself I am thinking too much. I see your sincerity. But… I have doubts too.

I: You doubt my love for you?

It was a very long silence in the room.

J: I am more scared of loving you…

J’s tears were flowing freely the moment she said it out before continuing..

J: We know we were not meant to be and we made the biggest mistake of our lives to start a relationship, one that caused a betrayal of the highest.. almost incestuous. And it started because I love you. *long pause again* Our breakup was the hardest and darkest part of my life. I cried every single day for months.. I cry myself to sleep every night and when I wake up in the morning, I would cry again. At work, I cannot remember how many times I had to run to the toilet and hide inside a cubicle to cry silently every single time I think about you. I really felt like dying. You may say that you know how painful it is but you will never, ever fully understand… every moment felt like a knife carving at my heart, bit by bit. It was so so painful… I have trouble breathing sometimes when I think about it..

I brought J’s head to my shoulder as she was still tearing and sobbing. She stayed on my shoulder for a while before speaking again.

J: You want to know the truth? I have never really like, totally gotten over you after all these years. Although life went on, I don’t think I can really love another man the same again. You met M right? (M was her only boyfriend after we broke off) He was really nice to me and frankly I can’t find much faults in him. I tried to move on, but I just can’t. Because when we ended, a big part of me died. I took years to bury that big part of me away… and tried to live a new life with whatever that’s left of me… So when I first met you again on the way to London, I thought, of all people why do I have to bump into you? And when you started asking me out and all, I really felt lost and confused. I managed to somewhat overcome the past to a large extent and now I am back taking a shot of going through it again.. with the same man. I am hurt so, so much before that I am really afraid of loving you… I’m sorry…

J broke down again. Her words pierced my heart as it also brought back memories of us breaking up and the pain I went through alone for months as well… oh man. Its not something that words can describe. I didn’t want to share my painful part or retort to some of the things she accused me of and just let her finish first. I reckon it’s the fear of the future as well as a certain amount of closure for the past she was seeking all these years.. the pain, the suffering she had to endure alone, just like me. Two persons that would otherwise perfectly understand each other but were not allowed to console or help each other at the lowest point of their lives.

But above all, J still wasn’t sure if I had thought about the repercussions of being together. Have I? The honest answer at that point of time? No, not really. I only know I love her.

[mdsalah]

nice story

[SerflySGR]

Originally Posted by seowlang

Part 10 HTHT

...... J broke down again. Her words pierced my heart as it also brought back memories of us breaking up and the pain I went through alone for months as well… oh man. Its not something that words can describe. I didn’t want to share my painful part or retort to some of the things she accused me of and just let her finish first. I reckon it’s the fear of the future as well as a certain amount of closure for the past she was seeking all these years.. the pain, the suffering she had to endure alone, just like me. Two persons that would otherwise perfectly understand each other but were not allowed to console or help each other at the lowest point of their lives.

But above all, J still wasn’t sure if I had thought about the repercussions of being together. Have I? The honest answer at that point of time? No, not really. I only know I love her.

What you are going through (or went through) is really tough Bro seowlang. Hope your J and you will be guided to a happier place in your life.

Social stigma is a tough thing; many people think they very smart and just judge without really putting themselves in your shoes.

Wish you all the best!

By the way, what does HTHT mean?

[Icebreg79]

That is a hell of a roller coaster ride for the emotion you 2 had TS. HTHT meaning Heart To Heart Talk?

[SerflySGR]

Originally Posted by Icebreg79

That is a hell of a roller coaster ride for the emotion you 2 had TS. HTHT meaning Heart To Heart Talk?

Thanks for clarifying Bro Icebreg79!

Yes, really tough on TS. Hope he and J can overcome all obstacles.

[otamay]

Nice update, good HTHT here.
Finally openning up and can resolve any differences, sl wish you good luck.

[RustBelt]

Really enjoy reading the update TS